Tears

I left home for a tad.  Take things back to library and get things from grocery store.

I was leaving and hit the main road....looked over at our house and the mountain and the snow....and a sad old country song was playing on the radio...."it keeps right on a hurting,when you're gone"

I cried.  I couldn't help it.  I love Mitchell so darn much.  I really came here with him expecting things to be so different from what they are.  I felt like I was abandoning him.....leaving him here in hell. 

I wonder how I am going to do it when it is really time to go?  I don't want him to see me cry....but I bet he will.  It will be for a short period of time, in a life time we are spending together....yet....it will seem like forever.

Mitchell is a soul mate.  He makes me laugh....he keeps me safe. No matter how bad some of the years we have gone through were....we did it together.  Now, now, I am wimping out and leaving him....  <sigh>