No pug :(

Yesterday I went on a mad dash to a town 4-1/2 hours from TMON to pick up a little girl pug.  Alas she was already adopted out by the time I got there at 2:30ish.

I had asked if they would hold her knowing I had so far to drive.  No....people don't show up.
I am litereally getting in my car, please?  Nope.  First come, first served.
Can I pay her adoption fee so they know I am seriously on my way??  No, we stopped doing that.

Sigh.

I cried.
I cried at my stupidity for going
I cried  for the loss of Dollie Mae and not getting to tell her I love her
I cried cause the people seemed to think it was funny I would drive that far
I cried
I cried and
I cried

I cried for the pug, and I think it was the cleaning crying for everything I have been going through and dealing with for the past year.....some of it real issues and some of it those, oh poor me,  imaginary things that my magical mind can come up with to obsess about.

Today.....I am going to regroup, turn on some loud music and work around the house and make it as neat as I can for a dusty dessert home.  I will make something nice to eat for the hubby when he is home tonight.

I will praise God for all the goodness in my life.....and I pray that the little pugger is in a wonderful home being loved on today.

Yes, I know....she went where she was supposed to go, and when it is time for us to adopt our next pug, the door will open.    Just so you guys and  God knows.....I am over here standing by the door..... :)

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**Something to share about my posting** Here in Nevada, there are two pug rescues....Reno And Vegas. You HAVE to be within three hour drive or you will not be considered as a rescue family. I am a little over 4 hours from both of them. Rescues are quick at pulling pugs from the craigslist or shelters.....once they do.....then I am not going to be able to help. Oh well......I do what I can where God put me....right? Of course that is right. Thanks for listening when my posted ramblings are not always light and fun. I appreciate you guys and gals.